Mandy knows best

We call it a book club just because the first time we met up there was another get together at the restaurant and they said they were a book club so it sounded fun. So what we actually do is read/write in the Untamed journal. This journal is hard. It's very triggering. It makes me want to burn down the patriarchy on every page. See even though I was raised by religious parents and teachers but those same people taught me how to vote and dress and act. So the questions in this journal are what were you taught makes you a good daughter, friend, mother, person etc. And to me they are all basically the same thing. From a young age I learn to cook, clean and take care of others. I started babysitting my siblings at 10 and I was supposed to make sure they doing everything that they were supposed to. It was not successful as I always felt like I was not someone who should be focusing on that. I knew I wasn't supposed to be the one to take care of children as I was a child myself. And

Podcast This was the perfect podcast because I've totally heard other podcasts about this but I've always wanted to watch a movie or TV show about this exact story. See, I've never seen the orignial movie as I didn't grow up watching scary movies and now it seems weird to watch something that old... But I saw this podcast and thought this is perfect, finally I can hear the whole story. This podcast is about the making of the Exorcist. The movie was based off of an news article about a true story of a "real life exorcism." In real life, the story was about a 12 year old boy but the movie was about a 12 year old girl, probably to make it easier to take advantage of her and have some weird sex scenes. So basically someone hired this up and coming director who had just won and oscar for his first movie. Then when they decided to go ahead with the movie they couldn't find anyone to play a few key roles. And after filming started there were even more weird thi

Yeah I quit writing again. I have been dating someone since September and with that it's been hard to juggle work, friends, side hustles, family and attempting a new relationship. And then Christmas came and it all got harder, then New Years came and it was even worse. New Years day was terrible. I had to do like 4 jobs myself and teach 4 people how to do the job at the same time. It was so busy too. I was exhausted but also very upset because I knew that I would not get any credit for what I had done. And then the real fun began. On January 4 I started the anxiety med Lexapro and it was fine the first couple of hours... And then the next day I got so dizzy and nauseous and felt like I couldn't even move. And stayed like that for 4 days and then started my period. So add bleeding and cramping to those feelings. And then 3 days later I got COVID... So basically I was sick for 11 days. That was a great start to the year. And then I had to work for 4 days and then go to Puerto Ric