Mandy knows best

So I'm pregnant remember. And I have to tell you, I don't like it. I really do try to remember that it won't be like this forever and the baby will make it all worth it. But I feel so weird all the time and I keep trying to act and be normal. Like I can live my life like normal. Like I can work like normal and go out with my friends when they ask. I have had 3 vacations planned for summer and they might actually kill me at this point. This is miserable. I basically don't even know how to function right now and it's really pissing me off. I know I'm making something out of my own body. And that is really cool and miraculous. But it's also very uncomfortable and totally miserable. I hate everything about it. I'm not feeling the joys at all. Am I doing it wrong or do moms just lie to us and themselves? Am I just doing everything wrong? I know I'm not eating enough but if I feel sick all the time how do I just ignore that? All while just trying to live

This is a Harlan Coben show. I think this is the third one that I've watched? And awkwardly I think I have this book but haven't read it yet... Oh well. Harlan is a british thriller novel writer. And they are so good at least on TV? I haven't actually read any of his books. But this one is about a mom who before meeting her boyfriend and having a few kids had a totally different life. But as she is about to marry her boyfriend of like 16 years her old life comes out to play. What comes next is a crazy whirlwind of lies and murder. The thing I like about Harlan's stories is that I really can't tell who the villian of the story is. There are so many twists and turns that I can't really figure out how its going to finish. And I was shocked! Which is a good ending to me. I also really like the people in the show too.

Just before I found out I was pregnant I took this 3 week coding bootcamp. Coding is weird becuse it seems really hard. Computers are very hard! But this is basically just learning a new language. So it started and I had kind of learned some basics before, I felt really good at first. But then they asked me to basically just blindly recreate a website that the guy created. I had no idea how to start and I was very frustrated. I actually took an extra week to finish because I got so anxious. I took an entire week to get back to it. But turns out I really did have it down. So a week late I moved on to the second week and then the third week all in the same weekend. I did it all. And yeah my boyfriend knows how to do all of it so I did all of it at his house. Truthfully, he couldn't help. I did it all on my own! And that made me feel so good about myself. The next part of it however is 5 months. And that would have taken me into summer and I was not prepared to do jump into that. I k

Movie I'm sure the main guy in the show was cool and all but to me Awkwafina is the one who made this show. I love her so much. The story is about a guy who's dad wants ultimate power and when he can't get it he goes a little crazy. He also lost his wife so that would drive people crazy too though. Basically his kids are estranged from him but something happens that brings the whole family together again… And causes Shang Chi to learn their real strength and power. Yep this is a Marvel movie. So really, the story line could use some work… it's not very detailed but I'm sure they will add more later. I can't even really remember if there is anyone other than Wong to tie us to Marvel. Really, it's a good movie but I can’t really find that much to talk about with it. It's a typical Marvel movie.

So about a year ago my best friend decided that for her 30th birthday she wanted to go to Vegas. At the time the plan was a little different but obviously as life went on the plan adjusted to what was actually going on in her life. So we ended up going a few weeks earlier because of school and her newly 21 year old sister came with. So it was Alix (Birthday friend,) Gracie (little sister,) Chala (basically platonic life partner of Alix,) Lish (my soul sister,) and me (the pregnant weakling.) This was one of those girls trips that only happen in the movies. We had all the plans, Magic Mike, fully nude strip club, dancing all night, spending all day at a light buzz only to go over board at night to then go home and sleep and go to the pool all day. The dream right! So Thursday night we got to the hotel and got all dolled up and got ready for Magic Mike. That was a show, no details because it's too good to explain but Alix went up on stage and Gracie got to slow dance with one of them

Seems like this is based in real life. It's about a free spirited girl who is too real to hold down a job. So with some luck, she finds a way to create her own job. She uses this fancy thing called the internet to sell things that other people would think would never sell. Used clothes. Yeah Vintage. Now vintage stores have been around forever I'm sure. But they are often for cheaper people who are looking for clothes they can afford over that one of a kind piece that was lost to history. But if you have the eye and the luck, there are amazing things to find. So this is the story about a girl who has that eye and is able to turn it into a successful business really is my dream. That is why I try so many random things these days. If I keep finding side hustles one of them is bound to take off? I have to tell you, I didn't like this show. I would not be friends with this girl. But I love the thought of being able to be yourself and turn it into money.

So everyone that I talk to on a normal basis knows but I don't really know how to announce to others. But this is where I tell all my secrets. So I guess it's time. I'm pregnant. Yep just over 12 weeks according to how big baby is. No I don’t know what I'm having. And really, I'm not in a hurry to find out. Even just thinking about becoming a parent has me thinking a lot of different thoughts. Things like how do I raise my kid strong and independent and able to think for themselves when they literally don't know how to think at first. I am going to be the one dressing them for the first year at least, I'm going to be the one buying food and they can't tell me what they like yet. Now obviously when they get older they can start telling me those kind of things but we are always very much a product of our surroundings and when does that start? I truly think that my ex never developed a full personality because his mom's was the only one that could fit i

This is one of those Netflix series with 1 season just to tell a quick story. I guess it could go on to another season, but I feel like this story has been told so we'll see. But this show has Andie Macdowell playing an artistic hippy person which is very believable… And her real life daughter is the star of the show. For real but I don't know anything else she's been in. I loved her though, she was so real and believable and told a story that for sure has happened for 1000s of women. It really shows the real life of someone doing whatever it takes to take care of her daughter. It shows the struggle of trying so hard and yet still failing. Here's the thing, to me failing is important. The truth of life is that trying something scary will most often lead to some kind of fail. And that's ok, good even. I admire people who can keep going through adversity. What's the statistic, it often takes 5 times to leave an abusive relationship? That doesn't make it impos