Life?

Here I am 2 and a half weeks without TV, and I'm not missing it but I'm still anxious about it? So yesterday I told myself I could just go home and watch TV until it's time for bed but then I didn't. I made dinner, I hung out with my dogs, I talked to my parents, then I journaled and went to bed? That is not like me! So I'm starting to get excited that maybe I am turning over a new leaf and I won't have to be tied to the tv. I recently wrote about how alive I felt but I think I'm tired of that too. Like maybe I went too hard and now I need to fully rest? But also I haven't been taking my sleeping pills. I kind of forgot that I even had them. But honestly I wanted to really live in the moment last week… Because I'm not sure I've ever completely lived in the moment and embraced actual feelings. So I actually plan to completely take a nap in the sun while in the pool on Thursday. If I get burnt or sick who cares because I just want to chill. I haven't been reading as much because I did that thing where I try to start a non-fiction book after just finishing another. I need to read fiction in between these books, otherwise I think too heavy. So although I will only be in St. George for a day I plan on bringing multiple books again… Um, I know this isn't really much of a post but I'll probably have more to post later. And just know that I'm actually very excited about life right now. So I'm just trying to live it.

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