Mandy knows best

Ugh, I don't know what happened this week but I guess it has something to do with just recognizing the anxiety that has been coursing through me! I thought I was doing completely fine, good even but last week everything took a turn. So I think what was really happening was that I ignoring thoughts, feelings, emotions, and my mental health in general. So 2 weeks ago when my therapist asked if I was maybe doing that, it got me thinking even though I told her I was fine. See summer is for doing. And I was doing so good. But I'm beginning to think that maybe just because I'm not actively thinking and feeling doesn't mean those things aren't happening in my body without me knowing... So basically my therapist forced me down the spiral slide so I need a new one now. Just kidding but it has been very rough since the realization. Here's the crazy thing though. All my therapist did was put it on my mind and my body did the rest. The first thing that went was my sleeping...

This movie is so good! It's about a high school student from the bottoms in Inglewood? He does not seem to fit in as he wishes he was in the 80s and he's considered a nerd instead of a gangster. But he has a crush and because of this he follows her to a party that changes his whole thing. Him and his friends seem to do everything to avoid being cool... But smart people get shit done! So basically at this party they end up with a bunch of um drugs, money, and even a gun in his Malcom's backpack. That creates a ton of crazy things coming up. He ends up meeting some crazy spoiled rich kids that think they are harder than they are and that is what starts what could have been the end of life as Malcom knew it. He goes to multiple parties and basically becomes a dope dealer overnight but in his own cool way. But the best part is that he uses it to try to get into Harvard! This is a short post because I don't think this was a super popular movie but it was so good! The boy...

I feel so confused right now. I thought I was doing so good but all of a sudden I feel like I've never had any success in my life. I was feeling better with work, I was busy outside of work, I was getting paid for my side hustles, I was trying to focus my mind, I was dating a guy that was different - seemed just like he was just what I needed. Now all of that is actively the same but I feel so different about it. I feel abandoned for literally no reason. I'm doing just fine and I don't know why I don't feel like I am. It's almost like it's fully in my head. I cannot get out of bed in the morning which is affecting my job, I sleep all day when I'm not at work so I can't sleep at night. I sold $100 worth of stuff from my lego website and I posted another $400 worth of inventory. I am still journaling every day and meditating on the side. I was actually trying to focus on one guy instead of dating him and distracting myself with other people on the side, ...

I watched this literally months ago, but it's an old movie so I assumed everyone had already watched it so I wasn't worried. But maybe some people miss the old format so this one is for you! Kristen Bell isn't my favorite actor but she's in a lot of my favorite shows. Mila is one of my favorite's so in a way it's nice to see her beat Gossip Girl... But Jason Segal is the star in every way of this movie. I'm pretty sure he wrote and directed it and was the best in the whole show. Russell Brand plays his character great but can you even consider this acting? He's just kind of crazy and it works for the characters he plays. I also appreciate Paul Rudd's character. I always forget that he's in this movie. This follows poor Jason as he navigates one of the most awkward breakups that ever could happen. He dated her for 5 years and they work together, plus she's a star so she's literally everywhere and with her new lover! Plus the setting is ...

Kim Krans Son of Wands A wand comes up from the bottom of the card and looks to ignite the card in a explosion of orange and black. A snake is wrapped around the wand. For how simple it is, it's a really cool card. CHARMING, ADVENTUROUS. The son of wands is a true charmer. He's handsome and adventurous and seems to say all the right things. Some call him the "white knight" of the tarot. But at some point you may find he becomes hard to know. Trust your instinct with this one-perfection is an illusion. I think this means that there is something around the corner that we should watch out for. This makes it seem like it's a guy but in this case I don't think it is. I think it's going to be an opportunity that will look perfect but then ultimately will be too good to be true. I feel likt this is one of those super general readings that people hate but I have a feeling that its's going to be something political but that has a lot to do with how politi...

Ok so I actually don't have any decisions to make. But I'm seeing someone and it's really fast but it's different... So I'm sure I've already mentioned all this but I told him that I would be willing to follow the guy to Phoenix, I've always been curious about Arizona and I love the heat. Plus I have this really weird connection to him so I kind of think of him as a chance to experience the part of my life that was only in my mind previously. I definitely won't follow some guy that I've been seeing for a couple months but I told him if we could still make it work for a little while with distance than I would definitely follow asap. Now for the new decisions, he's trying to figure out what to do and he's very anxious about it. So with that he's naturally talking to me about all these thoughts he's having. I'm really trying to be supportive but for each thought he has I then have a mental battle thinking if I should just tell him ...

Be bold and make the first move - Cardinal Moon Now is the time to be bold - bossy, even. Take matters into your own hands. Cardinal signs are powerful and self-starting; they're determined and great at organizing. Drawing this card strongly suggests that you're going to need to be all those things to get your ideal resolution or position in the situation you're asking about. This card may challenge you on how strongly you really want something. If you're worrying about a situation, it is a suggestion to be less passive. Instead, take an assertive stance as you steer events where you want them to go. Speak up for what you want. If you're serious about sorting things out, you may need to take the lead in some way, to step up as a leader. I take this to mean that many of us are too passive and we end up just going with the flow for everything. For example at work, this guy came in and created a whole new situation for organizing and for some reason there is one lo...